How You Win Is More Important Than if You Win
The beauty is in the process, not the results.
Originally published July 19, 2021, inĀ Mind Cafe
Note: This is a longer rant based on my Instagram post from the other day. Hope you enjoy :)
What does āsuccessā mean to you?
To some of us, it means triumph, exploitation, and the assertion of dominance. To some of us, success just meansĀ everything. I don't know about you, but Iām fed up with my identity based on my ability to produce work, win things, or make money. Iām sick of trying to be perfect because I fail at itĀ every time. Iām sick of the āwin or dieā mindset.
You probably wonāt believe it when I say it, but I donāt care if I succeed or fail anymore. Iām burnt out of my own expectations. IfĀ the self is an illusion, I want to make my illusion easier to deal with.
Itās not that I want to fail, but Iāve begun to realize that my egoās intense attachment to results is one of the biggest obstacles holding me back from being happy while pursuing success.
Iāve got a lot of experience withĀ āIāll be happy whenā¦ā syndrome, and these are the principles that are leading the way in my recovery.
Have Fewer Desires
In Buddhist philosophy, one of the central teachings is toĀ remove desire from your life.
In theory, I think that the removal of desire is a central key to happiness and contentment. However, I also believe that as a human being, I canāt help but have desires. Sorry, Buddha. Iāve written before about how Iām a terrible Buddhist, and part of it is probably myĀ intenseĀ desires. When you rip away all the bullshit, Iām a spoiled brat who wants to be a world champion, and Iāll do whatever it takes to get there.
That being said, one can still adopt selfless,Ā Buddhist ideasĀ into their life even without completely removing desire ā even a desire-obsessed brat like me. The application of philosophyĀ does notĀ have to be all or nothing. Having fewer desires is better than having too many, and youāll probably be more successful than someone who has āno desireā.
The biggest goal in my life is to be a high-level black belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. This goal encompasses a lot of my time and it takes the life out of me physically and emotionally. Iām obsessed with training, studying, competing, and improving at this sport. Itās my strongest desire.
Apart from the sport, I now have very few desires. Really, all I want outside of Jiu-Jitsu success is love, health, and writing. Even these might be ātoo manyā desires, but the point is Iām not really interested in having 6 cars, building a Fortune 500 company, or becoming famous on TikTok. As my desire decreases, my happiness increases.
To paraphraseĀ Buddhism, desire is the route of all suffering. To limit desire therefore will limit suffering.
Have a Healthy Relationship with Desire
Though Iāve admitted that I still have desires, that doesnāt mean that these desires can all encompass my identity. Having aĀ performance-based identityĀ is the spiritual equivalent ofĀ having too many desires. If you have fewer desires but your desires are too strong, you still will be unhappy.
I first learned this lesson when I had my first major sports injury a few years ago. At the time, my entire life was based on winning Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu matches and tournaments. Nothing else ā I meanĀ nothingĀ else ā mattered. I trained 6ā7 days per week, 2ā3 times per day. Yet, it wasnāt the hard work that burned me out,Ā it was the intense desire. I was unhappy pretty much every moment of every day, except when I was winning and satisfying my desire.
Because of my all-encompassing focus on Jiu-Jitsu, I was actually getting worse at the sport due to the incredibly rigid expectations of success I was placing on myself. I believed that because I was working so hard, I deserved success more and I deserved it faster than anyone else.
The obsession with my own skill development forced my progress to stall. The desire stopped my growth.
I think this is the real reason that writers are often encouraged to ālive interesting livesā. You need a life outside of writing not only to āgive you stuff to write aboutā, but also to keep you sane. Youāre not just a writer, martial artist, or whatever other labels you attach to the things you do. Youāre a person, first and foremost.
The stronger you desire something, the more elusive it becomes.
Chase Healthy Perfection
If the only thing motivating you to succeed is glory, titles, or money, youāre probably also on a slippery slope to burnout and frustration. Though we talk about how ālife is shortā all the time, life is really long as hell, especially if you spend that time in discomfort and personal anguish.
The result of the obsession with success is that your desire to ānot failā will become stronger than your desire to succeed. This stagnant mindset stalls technical and competitive progress, regardless of skill or domain.
There will always be another tournament to win, another business to start, or another girl to chase. If that dopamine hit from āwinningā is your only source of motivation, youāre going to miss out on so much of what life has to offer.
The truth is, how you win is just as important as if you win. The more time I spend competing in Jiu-Jitsu, the less my goals are able to be based solely on gold medals or getting my hand raised. Nowadays, Iām focused on displaying my hard work each time I compete by executing my jiu-jitsu as perfectly as possible. Iām not married to perfection, but I am thrilled to keep striving.
This goal has made all the difference in decreasing my anxiety surrounding my sport, my future, and my perspective on life. A true growth mindset combines the flow of abundance with the persistence of scarcity. This is where greatness is born.
Closing Thoughts
Success is elusive. ItāsĀ reallyĀ hard to get good at stuff. There are a thousand reasons for all of us to fail, and very few reasons to succeed. āHappinessā or āvictoryā might sound easy to me, but to someone whoās depressed or whoās never won anything, this is probably obnoxious and privileged advice.
Iām not saying that everyone has to be a winner or even that everyoneĀ canĀ be a winner. I donāt know about life, but in martial arts tournaments, only one person gets to stand on the top of the podium.
Iāve been on the top of the podium, the bottom, and not on it at all, and all of these experiences have made me realize that itās not even about the podium, itās about how you get there that makes you grow. If you win a championship by stalling, exploiting the rules, or cheating, you might get a gold medal and feel validated, but you wonāt grow. You might make a few bucks, but people can see through lies easier than you think.
Life isnāt about the chase to the top, itās about living well. Happiness isn't about competition, itās about philosophy and connection.
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5 Quotes on Victory
"You cannot expect victory and plan for defeat." ā Joel Osteen
"Be ashamed to die until you have won some victory for humanity." ā Horace Mann
"I count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies; for the hardest victory is over self." ā Aristotle
"If you can react the same way to winning and losing, that's a big accomplishment." ā Chris Evert
"If you're confused about what to do, it's a sign that your enemy is winning." ā Toba Beta
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Wishing you the best,
āChris